it can get hard to breathe.

 

An ordinary mirror is silvered at the back but the window of the night train has darkness behind the glass. My face and the faces of other travellers were now mirrored on this darkness in a succession of stillness. Consider this, said the darkness: any motion at any speed is a succession of stillnesses; any section though an action will show just such a plane of stillness as this dark window in which your seeking face is mirrored. And in each plane of stillness is the moment of clarity that makes you responsible for what you do.

— Russell Hoban, The Medusa Frequency.

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clarity.
clairvoyance.
what a rare sight.
the art of being
perceptive
ain't pretty
enough.

cheat day.
the one day
to stop counting
calories
it's all about
confidence
and accepting
reality
no longer playing
numbers
games.

grab a can
open up
pour it out
heat it up.
get some
dips
carbs
overload.

be careful
consume
with caution
look out
for the litter
crumbs
everywhere
attracting
ants
hard to
get rid of
the feeling.

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release the butterflies.

hope the butterflies fly away,
they are flying in circles.
hope the butterflies aren't lethal,
they look so demure yet..

hope the butterflies fly away,
but they are stuck in the cage.
hope the butterflies don't stay,
but the want for them to stay.

so unlock the door,
but leave it closed.
wishful thinking
in hopes the butterflies will fly away.

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M.

and then my heart starts to bleed,
turn my pain off.
i can't control part of me,
so hit ctrl-alt-del
turn my brain off.