i wish i could find a way to let you go.

There are four kinds of people in this world, Ms Harper. Those who build walls. Those who protect walls. Those who breach walls. And those who tear down walls. Much of life is discovering who you are. When you find out, you also realize there are places you can no longer go, things you can no longer do, words you can no longer say.

— P.S. Baber, Cassie Draws the Universe.

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traffic was heavy.

it was pouring.

the wipers going at maximum speed.

one hand on the wheel,

the other on the phone.

was it a death wish?

safe in shelter.

there's no more rain.

time to step on the brake.

no, don't want to;

but got to.

instead

step harder

on the accelerator

on reverse.

rewind.

two hours ago.

stuck in the jam.

patience.

a virtue

unappreciated.

getting past the congestion.

unanticipated onlooking,

what a sight.

blue tent.

from deep inside

tears welled.

holding a picture of

an ideal world,

resisting the urge to crush it

or throw it away.

tear drops fell

and made it

a water colour painting.

too good to exist.

fast forward.

back to reality.

close both eyes

squeeze remaining tears out.

let it out,

let go.

hands off the wheel.

hit a wall.

goodbye.

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M.

but all the rumours out there hurts me so

you're stuck in my mind

even i tried so hard to replace you.

it's time to realise you're never mine and say goodbye.

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