Wash away all the things you've taken.

There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore.

— Laurie Halse Anderson, Wintergirls.

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War es so einfach?

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Her favourite game was hide and seek.

She would host it once a week.

She always loved the thrill of the numbers counting down

and how she could not be found.

She always wanted to be able to be good at the game

not knowing how obsessed she became.

She always wanted to go all out and be the best

but she forgot that the game wasn't a test.

She always hoped that no matter where she would hide

she couldn't be found no matter how hard they tried.

She always hid so well as she waited to be found

but maybe she didn't want to be found.

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Oder habe ich es so einfach aussehen lassen?

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M.

And I don't care if I don't look pretty.

Big girls cry when their hearts are breaking.