I'll pray that one day you see.

"So I am not a broken heart. I am not the weight I lost or miles or ran and I am not the way I slept on my doorstep under the bare sky in smell of tears and whiskey because my apartment was empty and if I were to be this empty I wanted something solid to sleep on. Like concrete. I am not this year and I am not your fault. I am muscles building cells, a little every day, because they broke that day, but bones are stronger once they heal and I am smiling to the bus driver and replacing my groceries once a week and I am not sitting for hours in the shower any more. I am the way a life unfolds and bloom and seasons come and go and I am the way the spring always finds a way to turn even the coldest winter into a field of green and flowers and new life. I am not your fault."

- Charlotte Erikkson

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When the skies were dark,

she would hate to shower.

The cold wind would blow,

and she would be freezing for hours.

Each time she stepped out of the shower,

she shivered and regretted even stepping in.

From then on,

she hated the shower,

every single time the skies were dark,

and the cold winds were blowing.

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One day she fell in love.

She fell in love with showering.

She fell in love with just standing in the shower.

She fell in love with singing in the shower.

The sun outside was hot and scorching,

she would feel the need to take a shower

to cool down and to feel refreshed,

she loved it.

One day she fell in love.

She fell in love with showering.

She fell in love with just standing in the shower.

She fell in love with crying in the shower.

The sun outside was gone, but

she would feel the need to take a shower

to keep warm and to feel company

she loved it.

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When the skies were bright and sunny,

she would stay in the shower

for four songs

singing her heart out.

Each time she stepped out,

she felt good.

It became habitual,

a routine she could not give up.

Each time she wanted to play with fire,

she took a shower instead.

When the skies were dark and windy,

she would stay in the shower

for four songs

deep in thought.

Each time she stepped out ,

she felt so good.

From then on,

she couldn't stop loving showers.

With the water raining on her

each and every time.

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If crazy equals genius

then I'm a fucking arsonist.

You can set yourself on fire,

but you're never gonna burn.

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M.

The only difference between life and dying,

is one is trying, that's all we're called to do.

So try to love me, and I'll try to save you.