when will i learn.

It's like Forrest Gump said, 'Life is like a box of chocolates.' Your career is like a box of chocolates - you never know what you're going to get. But everything you get is going to teach you something along the way and make you the person you are today. That's the exciting part - it's an adventure itself.

- Nick Carter.

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Hold in the breath.
Just one short pause in breathing.
Don't let the air out.
Don't let them see your belly.
Don't breathe.
Just keep the air in your lungs.
Don't breathe out yet.
Not just yet.
You're not ready.
The short pause is getting longer.
With each passing moment of trying to hold it in.
Don't release it yet.
Not just yet.
Be patient.
Hold it.
Be strong.
Be independent.
You know you can hold it in longer.
You can hold your breath.
You know you can.
Be tolerant towards the sensation in your throat.
Like hot air burning up from your lungs.
Not yet.
Not ready yet.
It's not time yet.
Keep it in.
Hold in the breath.
Just one short pause in breathing.
Let the air out slowly.
Release it a bit at a time.
As hard as it is to control the release.
A little at a time.
Be patient.
Be strong.
Be independent.
There.
The last of the air you held it.
All released.
You tell yourself.
You can do it again.
Be patient for it.
Fight the distractions for it.
Be strong.
Be independent.
Are you sure you were ready for that?

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Because sometimes the mind tells you that you're ready;
the mind - rushing to get the task over and done with.
Sometimes the body tells you that you can't do it;
the body - rushing to get the task over and done with.

Sometimes being ready is a wrong decision.
Being ready does not prove that you're patient enough,
strong enough, independent enough.

Sometimes being ready is a right decision.
Being ready shows that you're patient, strong and independent,
that you're capable of accomplishing it.

Why rush to be ready?
What's the rush?

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M.

I push it down, push it down.