shut your eyes.

"If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; this is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them."

- Henry David Thoreau

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The pain kicks in slowly.

First, you have a build-up of denial.
You imagine what everything would be like in a perfect world -
the perfect world which we all know would not exist,
it builds up in the mind; the storeys of fantasy,
the levels of wonder, the never ending happiness.
The perfect world was all too good to be true.

Then, the anger strikes.
The demand for that perfect world to exist;
the determination to make it true;
the fight to make it real.
It was too close, yet too far.
The hope that violence could make it happen.

Next, it was the pleading.
Conditional convincing;
Rational reasoning.
Trying to strike a deal,
persuasion at best.
A bargain to set the expectations right.

Followed by the tears -
swallowing the pain within,
the reluctance to give up.
The strength within was withering,
the hurt was more than hurtful,
but the screams were silent.

Eventually, the struggle stops.
With a final breath, the thought of the perfect world was over.
Reality was truer than the perfect world,
it would not exist regardless of the battle.
Reality was hurtful, but perhaps
what will be, will be.


The pain kicks in slowly.


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Let it be as it is.
Perhaps it is not the pain that holds you back.
Perhaps it could be the pain that you enjoy.
Either way, let it be as it is.

There is no use fighting for something perfect;
for perfection never existed.
While fighting for something,
stop to contemplate.

Question the questions;
fight the fighting;
struggle from the struggles;
get out of getting out.




and you realise that there wasn't a need for the pain to begin with.
ctrl-a
delete.
power off.

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M.

you realise.